Excited!

I leave in 5 days. It's becoming so real to me. I have stuff all over my living room floor, all my gear and my mail drops... I thought I was going to get everything done today but I didn't. I can't put my finger on it but I'm kind of down today. I think I'm just feeling overwhelmed. there are so many last minute details and things to do. I'm worried about money worried about my phone bill worried about food. I just need to relax and stop worrying so much about everything. this is going to be an amazing experience an adventure of a lifetime I am really looking forward to it and I just need to change my way of thinking and  adopt that positive attitude that I like so much in others. sorry if I'm rambling and I'm also using voice to text on my phone. I will go back and edit this on my computer when I have time. this entry is it really about anything at all it's just a random rant. I'm going to clean up my gear now and have something to eat.  later.